I don't have enough faith to be an atheist (great video). I wrestle with doubts and fight through these posts for a closer walk with God. Feel free to tag along.
Lay it at the Cross
A prayer to endure.
Lord Jesus
I come to You tonight with a heavy heart and heavy burdens of brothers and sisters.
In our lives are countless family and friends who are resistant to Your message of hope and salvation. They are resistant to their own world around them declaring You. They are belligerent in word and action, determined to live in rebellion to You and with hatred towards those who proclaim Your name.
Grant us strength to endure.
🗓️ April 8, 2026
Graves into Gardens
Yesterday I laid my sins down at the cross...again.
Our church did something pretty cool for Good Friday. After the message, Josh (our senior pastor) gave everyone the opportunity to write down any sins we've been holding on to, and lay them at the foot of the cross that was on stage. Reluctantly, I did, too.
When the worship songs ended, Josh and James (our assistant pastor) picked up the bucket we had all placed our sin-filled cards in. I was nervous.
🗓️ April 4, 2026
Eyes to See
A prayer of praise...
Good and Gracious Heavenly Father,
I thank you today for your continued blessings.
Lord, you reminded me today again of your absolute control in this world. Conversations and opportunities I would never have expected or planned for, but they show up anyway. How can I not see your hand!
🗓️ March 10, 2026
Where's the fruit?
I have thought a lot recently about God's will for my life.
What should I do for a more fulfilling career? Where should I live? Is there a Godly spouse in my future? Is there a single "best path" forward? If so, how do I discern it?
And looming even larger are questions like how do I catch up on years of neglected study of the Scriptures? Will God work through my life for His own glory? Will I even have the satisfaction of seeing the results of His work through my life? I must admit to getting little comfort from these.
🗓️ November 22, 2025
The Ways of a Father
The ways of the Father are mysterious. I have prayed many times for clarity on God’s will for my life. I have hope that it is there, that He is there, but I tell myself there have been few moments where I have drawn any semblance of His presence or direction in my life.
I know I am not alone in these thoughts. There is a scene from National Treasure that has always stuck with me. Nicholas Cage and Diane Kruger are fresh from their daring heist of the Declaration of Independence, the FBI hot on their heels. They pause to shed their tuxedos and slip into clothes more fitting for fugitives. As they dress, their banter turns unexpectedly earnest. Kruger tells Cage that “people don’t really talk like that,” referring to his impassioned speech and deep-seated convictions. Cage responds, “no, but they think like that”.
🗓️ July 12, 2025
A New Year in Christ
But you will not leave in haste or go in flight; for the Lord will go before you, the God of Israel will be your rear guard. -Isaiah 52:12, NIV
I have been reading the daily devotionals lately from Oswald Chambers and today’s devotional brought to mind a recent sticking point for me…how do I reconcile my past and move forward in my walk with Christ?
If I am being honest, I still wrestle with this daily. Every time I read about Solomon I see myself. I was given all the opportunities in the world to succeed and walk down the right path. I was “raised” in a household that attended church (for what that’s worth). I was gifted by the Almighty with a sharp mind and some ability for insight that showed promise (if applied). I was not inclined to any vise, but I also had no preparation against it.
🗓️ December 31, 2024
Fear of faith
I came across an article on twitter today (not calling it x) and I felt compelled to write about it. The article Uncoding Divinity, comes off the heels of a more in-depth overview from the author on the simulation theory and begs the question: is the universe "not divine, but designed"? Why not both?
Frank Turek from Cross Examined does a great job laying out an overview for the teleological argument for God, that is, the argument that design proves the existence of a Designer. It amazes me how humans (and those in the tech industry in particular) will praise the benefits of reusable and repeatable design (like code libraries and frameworks) then disregard the observance of similar patterns in nature. Human code, our own DNA, differs from the closest primates by less 2%, yet mankind is infinitely more advanced, creative, and adaptable. While the divergence between Basecamp and Shopify will no doubt exceed 2%, the principle of reusable code is the same. The end application for each company may be different, but both were built from the same starting point that underpins thousands of applications across dozens of industries. The question in my mind is do we believe God can manufacture such different creatures with so little difference in our underlying code? If the world were indeed created by an intelligent designer, and we were made in His image, is it ridiculous that our own design patterns would inevitably mirror God's? I find it incredibly fascinating!
🗓️ December 7, 2024